All expectations laid aside, I had *hoped* to post at least once a month.

There have been challenges – physical, emotional, spiritual…

And though time and energy fail me, I want to speak of what my heart knows:

Jesus. never. disappoints.

In all my disappointments with life, this broken world, and rising hopes leveled to the ground, I am never disappointed with Jesus.

When I seek Him, I find Him – ever inclined to let Himself be found by me.

Even when I am reluctant, resistant even, to seek him, He keeps orchestrating all these details to lift my head, to draw my gaze to Him.

Because He knows what is needed: that *one thing*.

Like David, I find it to be true again and again:

In Him is everything my heart has ever longed for.

One thing I ask from the Lord,
    this only do I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
    all the days of my life,
to gaze on the beauty of the Lord
    and to seek him in his temple. 

Psalm 27:4

And I see it there in my own handwriting, numbered on that list of gifts, thanking Him:

“That God is enough, even if everything else is falling apart.”

And the hurting part of me wonders, “Is it true?  Is it true now?”

Swift Spirit-reminders beckon me:

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”  

Matthew 11:28-30

If I don’t believe it just now – that that one thing will make every thing right – do I dare to find out?

The One who gave Himself up for me and always lives to intercede for me … He waits.

He waits for me to come so He can keep giving.

So I can keep finding out.

Jesus never disappoints.